“It’s not an easy task to feel right in a world that body-shames and slut-shames and shame-shame-shames everyone into feeling deeply, inherently wrong”
Working against my body since 2015 & couldn’t even notice what I was doing to myself. It all started with a small obsession over here & there & ended up seeing ONLY the flaws in my body.
I come from a long line of emotional eating, so my only thoughts when I get sad or stressed are eating that box of whatever (chocolates, bread, cheese…etc.)that will make me feel better.
We are supposed to eat & enjoy what we are eating and move on but that didn’t happen to me. I eat what I wanted to eat & before finishing my last bite, I feel ashamed, down & extremely angry. Angry that I didn’t man up to not eat the food that makes me fat. I shifted my entire mind set & made the scale & food define me.
I couldn’t stop staring at myself in the mirror. I remember one day I called ahmad in the middle of the night & was hysterically crying because I hate my body & that I saw cellulite on the side of my left thigh (Still have it though).
The issues with my body started long time ago BUT it got really out of my hands when I started my career in fitness & started comparing myself to other fitness gurus “bodies” & as I result, always felt ashamed of mine. I forgot all about what I have accomplished & still accomplishing.
You expect me to write down the steps that helped me get out of that rotten cycle but I wont. I am going to write an affirmation for all of us who share the same feeling.
We can choose to abuse our bodies day & night, we can choose to say that “I will never look healthy, pretty or fit”. We can choose to be victims & make excuses for not putting any effort into loving ourselves for who we are at the moment.
WE NEED TO BE HEALTHY
WE DON’T NEED TO BE THIN
WE NEED TO BE FIT
WE DON’T NEED TO BE A CERTAIN SIZE OF SHAPE
WE NEED TO EAT GOOD
WE DON’T NEED TO FILL OUR BODIES WITH CRAP FOOD
WE NEED TO GET OUT OF THE FOG
WE DON’T NEED TO BE PERFECT
**Drop me a comment if you would like to read more about my journey in loving my body the way it is xoxo